Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Favored by God (part 2)

I recently read C.S. Lewis' "The Horse and His Boy" for the first time ever. If you haven't read it, this blog might spoil some things for you, for that I apologize.

So the story centers around Shasta, a boy, who is seemingly of Narnian blood, but was found by an old fisherman and raised in another country. He is mistreated and one night is going to be sold as a slave to a man. While outside sleeping he finds out that the man's horse, is a talking horse and is in fact also a Narnian exile. So they run away together and the book is about their journey on their way back to Narnia.

At this point you might be wondering what this has to do with my blog topic. Well in the story, shasta encounters many troubles, and by the end of the story he is very downtrodden. He is by himself in this part of the story... or so he thinks.
And being very tired and having nothing inside him, (Shasta) felt so sorry for himself that the tears rolled down his cheeks.

What put a stop to all of this was a sudden fright. Shasta discovered that someone or somebody was walking beside him. It was pitch dark and he could see nothing. And the Thing (or Person) was going so quietly that he could hardly hear any footfalls. What he could hear was breathing. His invisible companion seemed to breathe on a very large scale, and Shasta got the impression that it was a very large creature. And he had come to notice this breathing so gradually that he had really no idea how long it had been there. It was a horrible shock.

It darted into his mind that he had heard long ago that there were giants in these Northern countries. He bit his lip in terror. But now that he really had something to cry about, he stopped crying.

The Thing (unless it was a person) went on beside him so very quietly that Shasta began to hope that he had only imagined it. But just as he was becoming quite sure of it, there suddenly came a deep, rich sigh out of the darkness beside him. That couldn't be imagination! Anyway, he has felt the hot breath of that sigh on his chilly left hand.

If the horse had been any good - or if he had known how to get any good out of the horse - he would have risked everything on a break away and a wild gallop. But he knew he couldn't make that horse gallop. So he went on at a walking pace and the unseen companion walked and breathed beside him. At last he could bear it no longer.

"Who are you?" he said, barely above a whisper.

"One who has waited long for you to speak," said the Thing. Its voice was not loud, but very large and deep.

"Are you - are you a giant?" asked Shasta.

"You might call me a giant," said the Large Voice. "But I am not like the creatures you call giants."

"I can't see you at all," said Shasta, after staring very hard. Then (for an even more terrible idea had come into his head) he said, almost in a scream, "You're not - not something dead, are you? Oh please - please do go away. What harm have I ever done you? Oh, I am the unluckiest person in the whole world."

Once more he felt the warm breath of the Thing on his hand and face. "There," it said, "that is not the breath of a ghost. Tell me your sorrows."

Shasta was a little reassured by the breath: so he told how he had never known his real father or mother and had been brought up sternly by the fisherman. and then he told the story of his escape and how they were chased by lions and forced to swim for their lives; and of all their dangers in Tashbaan and about his night among the Tombs and how the beasts howled at him out of the desert. And he told about the heat and thirst of their desert journey and how they were almost at their goal when another lion chased them and wounded Aravis. And also, how very long it was since had had anything to eat.

"I do not call you unfortunate," said the Large Voice.

"Don't you think it was bad luck to meet so many lions?" said Shasta.

"There was only one lion." said the Voice.

"What on earth do you mean? I've just told you there were at least two lions the first night, and -"

"There was only one, but he was swift of foot."

"How do you know?"

“I was the lion.” And as Shasta gaped with open mouth and said nothing, the Voice continued. “I was the lion who forced you to join with Aravis. I was the cat who comforted you among the houses of the dead. I was the lion who drove the jackals from you while you slept. I was the lion who gave the Horses the new strength of fear for the last mile so that you should reach King Lune in time. And I was the lion you do not remember who pushed the boat in which you lay, a child near death, so that it came to shore where a man sat, wakeful at midnight, to receive you.” (Psalm 73:23; Romans 8:28)
“Then it was you who wounded Aravis?”
“It was I.”
“But what for?”
“Child,” said the Voice, “I am telling you your story, not hers. I tell no one any story but his own.”
“What are you?” asked Shasta.
“Myself,” said the Voice, very deep and low so that the earth shook: and again “Myself,” loud and clear and gay: and then the third time “Myself,” whispered so softly you could hardly hear it, and yet it seemed to come from all round you as if the leaves rustled with it.
(Exodus 3:14)
Shasta was no longer afraid that the Voice belonged to something that would eat him, nor that it was the voice of a ghost. But a new and different sort of trembling came over him. Yet he felt glad too.
(Psalm 2:11)

The mist was truning from black to grey and from grey to white. This must have begun to happen some time ago, but while he had been talking to the Thing he had not been noticing anything else. Now, the whiteness around him became a shining whiteness; his eyes began to blink. Somewhere ahead he heard birds singing. He knew the night was over at last. He could see the mane and ears and head of his horse quite clearly now. A golden light fell on them from the left. He thought it was the sun.

He turned and saw, pacing beside him, taller than a horse, a Lion. The horse did not seem to be afriad of it or else could not see it. It was from the lion that the light came. No one ever saw anything more terrible or more beautiful.

Luckily Shasta had lived all of his life too far south in Calormen to have heard the tales that were whispered in Tashbaan about a dreadful Narnian demon that appeared in the form of a lion. And of course he knew none of the true stories about Aslan, the great Lion, the son of the Emperor-over-sea, the King above all High Kings in Narnia. But after one glance at the Lion's face he slipped out of the saddle and fell at its feet. He couldn't say anything but then he didn't want to say anything, and he knew he needn't say anything.

The High King above all kings stooped towards him. Its mane, and some strange and solemn perfume that hung about the manhe, was all around him. It touched his forehead with its tongue. He lifted his face and their eyes met. Then instantly the pale brightness of the mist and the feiry brightness of the Lion rolled themselves together into a swirling glory and gathered themselves up and disappeared. He was alone with horse on a grassy hillside under a blue sky. And there were birds singing.

This was just such beautiful imagery to me. How through all our troubles and trials God guides us. This isn't to say every trouble and trial is brought about by God, but God definitely works through them.

We can't always know what God is doing in our lives, and we must remember He is working in the lives of those around us as well. We are allowed to go through these hard times, because they grow us, they teach us, they take us to where we need to be, so we can be strong and help others, (Romans 5:3-5, James 1:2-4,12) so we can be His hands and feet, and a mighty force against the gates of hell. (Mt. 16:18)

Also remember, God will never give you more than you can handle. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

Know and trust, have faith, God is there, He is guiding, He is for you, not against you. Be in constant prayer, that your life, your choices, would be dedicated to His purposes, to furthering the betterment of you and those around you in His good and perfect will.

  • "Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer." (Rom 12:12)

  • "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." (Rom 8:18)

  • "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." (James 1:2-4)

  • "Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him." (James 1:12)


"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose." (Rom 8:28)



for more scripture dealing with this check out: http://www.openbible.info/topics/trials_and_tribulations

4 comments:

Vanessa said...

Last night at the Breadline I started to fell kinda weepy..which I immediately shoved aside & swallowed. Apparently men aren't the only ones who feel shame when they cry. Who knew. But listening to then sing about sweet baby Jesus while I was holding Elliott on one leg & Otto on the other...it's something that hits me really hard this time of year, ya know?
Part 1 really got to me on so many levels. Thinking about the total pain and anguish I felt when Elliott cut his foot. Magnify that times I don't even know how much & think about what Mary must've gone through. I don't even know how she could've believed in anything at all, much less a loving God after going through what she did.
& part 2..I started reading thinking I probably wouldn't finish..just being honest..but it sank in really deep.
I think I get so down in the dumps way too often..consumed with how crappy life can be. How I've had no sleep or I'm exhausted from working so much..and I remember these aren't even big trials. How would I handle something of a grander scale? I've never really had anything awful happen in my life. I remember I used to pray for Esther's courage til someone pointed out the fact that I should be careful what I ask for. I stopped. I sometimes wonder if God doesn't trust me or favor me because he doesn't give me the trials he gives other people. A teething baby isn't a trial, it's an annoyance.
And I don't know if any of that made any sense, but it was definitely long enough.
Sorry. You gave me a lot to think about.

Vinton J Bayne said...

Personally I think He gives trials differently to everyone. It doesnt mean He loves you less.

He gives more trials to people who will need to be stronger.
It's also a matter of how we deal with what we are given, it goes back to the God never gives more than you can handle. If you can't handle it He wont give it.

and if you dont need to be made stronger for something, He wont work on that something.

A sword goes through intense beating, fire and sharpening before its a sword. but you wouldn't put the sword through the same fires as the axe, because everything has it's place. on a more drastic scale, you wouldnt put a fork through the same forming process as a sword.

God has something for you, and He is forming you to it. Rejoice that He has specific plans for you. That He cares enough to guide your steps and bring such love into your life as you have through your husband and children. through the good and the bad.

Anonymous said...

thanks for sharing this man. liyah and i were just praying about how we need some great guidance from the LORD on things that are coming up for us. we know that HE is always beside us, but what a great reminder this story brings.

i have never really read much by c.s. lewis, but i think this post may have encouraged me to read more from him.

thanks for sharing as always man.

Bethyboo said...

I remember when I read that book, all the Narnia books demonstrate how much God is here for us even when we don't feel him near,( last book I still have to read tho)

I needed a reminder, thank you, right now in my walk, in this ministry, and in this place that I am at, I keep forgetting to just look and see that God is with me, and to look and know, he give me no more then what I can handle,

you said "He gives more trials to people who will need to be stronger"
that moved me because it addresses where I'm at, part of me wants to just give up and go back to new york, because I'm not getting the proper leadership I thought i would get, but my brother reminded me, I'm here to learn, and to serve God in anyway, and If i need to do a lot of this on my own with Christ, then its only going to make me stronger, and in the process, I hope to gain confidence in what God is doing through me.

part of me doesn't want to be responsible for another mans flaws when it comes to this ministry, but I am here, because It was the best thing for me to act upon... I don't feel like I'm getting my spiritual fill but, I know that is my fault, because Its my responsibility to seek God above all.
It is frustrating to know that the one who is suppose to be leading me, is far from that , It's kind of like a neglectful mother who doesn't take care of there child, and the child needs to learn how to do life alone.
In this situation, it seems that my spirit is ready to move and advance when the leader is behind, its confusing, and emotionally draining.

I kinda want to talk more about this, and its getting way to long here, so when you get some free time please let me know so we can talk...